Fuck. Fuck everything

Hello. Ok Hi. I sits alone . I feel sad . I feel want to kiss someone . Of course , My boyfren . hikhik Rindu dia . I feel like wanna kill someone :B hehehe Hm I feel like wanna blogging right now . I'm bored . wanna die . can I ? Yes can . bodoh izzati .  Life's makin lama , makin slow . happy semua tak nampak dah . maybe this April will be the bad month ever . Ok i tahu tak semua kita akan happy kan ? tak semestinya kita akan sedih sampai bila bila kan ? But, sedih skrang . Apehal tah , today macam sedih and terfikir bout my life . Serious rindu gila time kecik semua , happy dengan my family . now makin besar , makin kene Independent . No , bukan nak cakap salah if kene independent . entah lah , ni my life story . Tak tahu ape ape cerita , diam . tak tahu cerita pasal aku and you people just tahu nama aku , senyap . You haa people you judge me better you go die .GO.DIE .

I want to confess something .

Yes, I'm a lonely girl. I feel lonely. Senang cakap , Forever Alone. Forever wanna be Alone . LOL Yes , I feel nothing . Tipu lah kan if cakap nthing ~ I feel sad , and wanna shout loudly . Yes , As loud as I can .

YA ALLAH I HATE MY FUCKING AWESOME FOURTEEN YEARS OLD LIFE. SERIOUSLY, I'D RATHER DO ANYTHING YANG MORE BETTER . I WANT MY KID'S LIFE BACK. I SWEAR I WANT MY KID'S LIFE BACK. PLEASE I HAD ENOUGH. I'M NOT STRONG ENOUGH . EF , EVERYBODY NOT PERFECT LAAAAAH . 

MY FOURTEEN'S LIFE : LESS FUN. MORE DRAMAS. MORE PRESSURE.

Ok. I miss my Thirteen's life and the moment when I eat an ice cream . atoto , Rindu ): . Imma hug my boyfriend , bestfriends.'cause entah lah . I miss everything lah kot . yes , I miss everything . Hey friends , I miss the moments we laughed and shared together . Ape kau merepek ni ? gila dah . So jiwang . Ok sorry to say , Im pretending that I'm a happy girl Alive . Buutttt ,  sometimes I'm a happy girl what . Eff , Im weird . ye lah sedih macam now ni , semua cakap je .    

Eh apehal ni kaki aku tak rase ape ape . Nak rendam kaki dalam air boleh ? weh sakit weh . BABI BABI BABI

Now Im playing Talking to the mood by Bruno Mars or BM for short . uwwwh , at night when the stars light up my room i sit by myself.. sriously , same with me . Bodoh , Izzati skrang jiwang lebih . Hm In hopes my boyfriend with me by myside , cause I miss him . Im lonely :C wanna cry laaaaah,can ? kenpe sedih sangat ? belaian jiwa for my title, pn also can . Im so belaian my Jiwa . so babi ayat macam tu . so stupid when my words banyk 'so'. Ok so stupid . ok dah . cukup.

Aina . Yes , Hi Aina . Im so sorry . Yes , I hurts you too much . Aku tak marah kau , tak benci kau , tak nak pn cakap cakap belakang semua . tadi pn Tiqah salah cerita . so please k tiqah , beware bila story balik dekat orang . Bagi tak misunderstanding . Wani ,gila rindu . nak share banyak sangat . and nak nangis depan kau. so sedih . semua kawan kawan , sorry ok if aku berperangai . and sape sape yang i pernah sakitkan hati semua , I'm sorry k .  Again , sorry . Sedih dengan myself . ok sedih .  

I wanna forget all those moments that always hurts me . and wanna forget about everything that I do . Something that already make my life full with sad story , please I wanna let you go . wanna forget bout you. see what happen now ? so emo , and kalau boleh tambah eyeliner . k idea qilah ~ I hate my life . thanks . ok . bye .  

Anyone who knows me, Yes Im not cool enough but sometimes Im awesome . Eceh , gurau je tu . Blog siapa ? suke hati siapa lah kan ? Eff , who cares . and me too , I dont care with everything . YES EVERYTHING . Except my family and boyfriend and My bestfriends ,Wani . Sorry lah people , bukan sebab I ade boyfren tak pn nak bajet cakap boyfren i itu ini dekat blog . but I really know and understand him more than everybody could . Eh betl ke Bi ? cambodoh . Ok , my parents . as you know lah parents mana yang tak pernah happy kan anak dia kan ? so , Im happy being their the only one daughter . I love you ibu , ayah . I love you angah , along semua <3 (: My boyfriend ? ok , He's the great one , and the perfect man ever . he's my man . He's my bofriend , my husband , my friends , my bestfriends , my father , my brother , my secret keeper , my good listener , my teacher , my nurse . He's my everything . He knows me very well . Thanks for everything . I love you , my baby C:

 Ok . NOT IN THE MOOD LAH OK. SANGAT NOT IN THE MOOD. thanks dengar my story yang emo-ness gila . ape ape , i will post later k . Night xx