Maybe , It's over .

Hi . Okay , here is my random post . Again . I'm bored , and feels like I'm all alone . No I mean , I dont know why I'm easy to hate and being sad . and It's all of sudden . Hey , you dont know what I mean to . what I feel to . And no one can cheers me up when I'm sad . No one can by my side when I'm sad . Seriously , No joke . I'm happy when I see you're just too take care of your buddy . Ohh How lucky that girl to have a bestfriends like you :-') You're so kind , so lovely , so nice and I swear you're the bestest friends that she ever had . Sooner..., I'll loosing you . and maybe tomorrow . Yes , I'm changed . And I'm changed because of somethin that happened to me . Believe it or not , one day I'll be crazy . No joke . How stupid I am for wasting my life ignoring you , my best bestfriend . But friends , I feel you already have someone that can replace me . Sorry If I'm being so f*ckin emotional here . typing this fuckin emotional post while crying...and I dont know why . Our moment , the way you always treat me as your sister . Oh I know I'm so spoiled . A spoiled girl ever that always needs you , and always act like a little girl sometimes . A few days ago , I feel that I'm not with you . It's just my body . I feel we're far away . Day to day , slowly...you disappeared from my life . And one day , maybe you'll lose forever . I will loosing you . And i feel so . just let me go , and bear all the pain by myself . I know I have a family . But nobody knows , what's the meaning of 'family' towards me . Nobody knows the real of my sad story . Nobody ask me why . Why I'm being so weird . Nobody take care of me anymore . NOBODY.  Everyday , I hope i can fix all of this . I'm scared to confess this infront of you . I know you're too busy . And I'm always keep it and act like there's nothing that I should tell you . Well , I think silent is better than confess everything . Look , I'm pretend I'm happy . You dont know what I feel right ? Yesterday , today and my feelings was remarkable . ME SAD . You still dont know why right ? Dont know the reason why I'm sad . And everynight I'm sleep with broken hearted . How disappointed when I realized you didn't wait , and see me even I'm near you . You dont know about it right ? Because there's no time between me and you . I hope there's someone that can explain , tell you what I feel and what happened to me . Ohh It's hard . hard to me to find a friends like you . And I bet you wont feel what I feel so . mm I know I'm not good enough . Reti update dekat post je kan ? And sorry yah my friends . sorry for what I've done . For cant understands you in no matter what situation it is . Yah...Understands you just like your friends understands you . For being a freakin awesome friends , and sorry for everything . For burden you im my family problem , and my silly life . Sorry If I'm harsh or make you feel sad . I didn't mean it all . I'm just in sad mood that cant control myself...my feelings, my words . I hope you understand what I mean . For awhile , I hope you wont talk to me . Please .