Um...Whaaattt !?

Johnnylace : "It's crazy how can someones mistake can hurt you so much. This was the only way that I can really let go of feelings inside me. I thought I would never in my life I would say this but me and Yuck are not together anymore.Things change and sometimes we can't let things slow us down because of someones mistake. Sometimes things that means to you so much is not in your hands to control. It was good while it lasted. I wish you the best and good luck. I'm sorry if our relationship made you guys think that every relationship ends up like this. Trust me it's not, somethings don't work out because is not meant to be. It's part of life to learn and progress to every obstacles in our path. It can only make you stronger. Understanding everything about a problem is the best way you can deal with it".

Truth #3

 Things you love & want .

Friendship bracelets 

Crop tops 

Dr Martens shoes

French Macaroons

The camera(s)

Dream Catcher

Tom shoes 

Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. Him. No one else would come across my mind as often as him. His perfect humor, his smile, his eyes when they sparkle, perfection.  Thinking about how much love him kills me sometimes but I'm gonna love him till I'm crazy . Ehe 

2. My future. Will I be poor or rich? Will I end up with marry my boy and have our cute and sweet kids ? Will I still be in touch with my friends? Will I become a Fashion designer? Will I travel from north to south America? Will I have read thousands of books when I'm older? Will I could create my own book ? Things like these always come up. Things that make sense, of course.
3. My parents. What all of us know is that, we don't know what to expect. When I think of my parents, questions come across my head, Will I die before them? Will I die with them? or Will they die before me? I don't know what to expect. But as for now, will I disappoint them with everything I do? Will I be their greatest embarrassment? Am I someone they're proud of?
4. Friends. They bright up my day, everyday. But what if I lose them? 
5. Life after death. How much sin have I made compared to the blessings? How many lies have I told that I haven't said the truth to? How much pain have I given to the ones that have never hurt me? Is hell or heaven waiting for me? 
6. My body. I look at myself in the mirror (with clothes on, ehem) and compare myself with my friends. Why are they better looking than me? My guy friends' girlfriends, why are they smaller or skinnier than me? No wonder people avoid me. I'm fat, and I hide myself in large attire. I never wear clothes than fit my body perfectly. Mm
7. The Bermuda Triangle. Is it weird I do think about it occasionally? I always, always, always wonder what is underneath it. What can we find if we do end up disappearing there. What had happen to the people inside of it? Woooih, I wanna go there!

 Guess what ? I made it by myself . Ehe The perfect combination, need I say more?

Truth #2

I'm not those girls..........
Who has a gorgeous smile.
Who has a stunning face.
Who has super long shiny hair.
Who has a perfect body.
Who attracts every guys eye.
Who gets over 100 notes whenever they post a new picture.
I’m not one of those girl. I have flaws and insecurities. I do get jealous. Myself esteem does get lower when I see a girl prettier than me. I’m not one of those girls. I’m sorry, I’m not good enough .

Another wish isn't fulfilled..

I had never thought I would be writing this. But,. I feel like you're just destroyed me. So bad . Yes, this post is sincerely dedicated to food . Um , I think , No food..No fat , No stress out , No cry , No sad feelings , No tears and No f*ckin emotinal just like...Right nah . I think karma comes back around and now I'm hurtings . What I'm gonna do ? New year getting closer . Only a few months to go . I should make my own food timetables . And my diet mission . diet mission ? sounds funny . sho funny ~ But.... Mm , I'm serious . I'm feeling like....I'm super stupid for being very very very veryyyyyyyy da fat and just loves to eat , eat , eat , eat , eat and Semangat tk kuat . Funny . Sometimes...I feel like wanna die . I wanna kill myself . But....I love  my mom , dad , my nigga , Him and those my swagger friends . Truth , I'm afraid of die . Oh someone please be my coach . Teach me how to diet , and get a new lyfe...I mean A healthy lifestyle . Oh mai God , I'm so serious right now . How I wish I can wear skinny jeans , Anything clothes, etc . Hm If kurus senang je nak keluar . t-shirt tk pn top yang simple but nice and Skinny jeans or legging , and flat shoes . How I wish I can wear just like that . hm How I wish...'How I wish' and I'm dreamin'......my house changed become a la la land and fairy tales world . OH EFFF ! common , do some efforts Izzati . You can't be like dis , lepak rumah makan makan makan......You should go out , somewhere and do some exercises . Bila nak kurus If macam ni je ? Pleaseeee , Naik form 3 kurus lah k . And fat , I'm seriously wanna make you get out of my body . me want to change my life . TRUTHLY , WANNA SEE ME TRULY HAPPY ? SOMETHING DAT GONNA MAKE ME A HAPPY GARL ALIVE IS BEING SKINNY . Umm , I'm finished . K dah bai . x

How I make a better day :

1. Eat
2. Laugh
3. Smile
4. text with him
5. play games with my nigga
6. Help my mother cook for our breakfast , lunch and dinner
7. playing with Tom
8. Listen to good songs
9. Plan something
10. Dream about the biggest cotton on .
11. Eat and Eat .