Truth #3

 Things you love & want .

Friendship bracelets 

Crop tops 

Dr Martens shoes

French Macaroons

The camera(s)

Dream Catcher

Tom shoes 

Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. Him. No one else would come across my mind as often as him. His perfect humor, his smile, his eyes when they sparkle, perfection.  Thinking about how much love him kills me sometimes but I'm gonna love him till I'm crazy . Ehe 

2. My future. Will I be poor or rich? Will I end up with marry my boy and have our cute and sweet kids ? Will I still be in touch with my friends? Will I become a Fashion designer? Will I travel from north to south America? Will I have read thousands of books when I'm older? Will I could create my own book ? Things like these always come up. Things that make sense, of course.
3. My parents. What all of us know is that, we don't know what to expect. When I think of my parents, questions come across my head, Will I die before them? Will I die with them? or Will they die before me? I don't know what to expect. But as for now, will I disappoint them with everything I do? Will I be their greatest embarrassment? Am I someone they're proud of?
4. Friends. They bright up my day, everyday. But what if I lose them? 
5. Life after death. How much sin have I made compared to the blessings? How many lies have I told that I haven't said the truth to? How much pain have I given to the ones that have never hurt me? Is hell or heaven waiting for me? 
6. My body. I look at myself in the mirror (with clothes on, ehem) and compare myself with my friends. Why are they better looking than me? My guy friends' girlfriends, why are they smaller or skinnier than me? No wonder people avoid me. I'm fat, and I hide myself in large attire. I never wear clothes than fit my body perfectly. Mm
7. The Bermuda Triangle. Is it weird I do think about it occasionally? I always, always, always wonder what is underneath it. What can we find if we do end up disappearing there. What had happen to the people inside of it? Woooih, I wanna go there!

 Guess what ? I made it by myself . Ehe The perfect combination, need I say more?

Truth #2

I'm not those girls..........
Who has a gorgeous smile.
Who has a stunning face.
Who has super long shiny hair.
Who has a perfect body.
Who attracts every guys eye.
Who gets over 100 notes whenever they post a new picture.
I’m not one of those girl. I have flaws and insecurities. I do get jealous. Myself esteem does get lower when I see a girl prettier than me. I’m not one of those girls. I’m sorry, I’m not good enough .

Another wish isn't fulfilled..

I had never thought I would be writing this. But,. I feel like you're just destroyed me. So bad . Yes, this post is sincerely dedicated to food . Um , I think , No food..No fat , No stress out , No cry , No sad feelings , No tears and No f*ckin emotinal just like...Right nah . I think karma comes back around and now I'm hurtings . What I'm gonna do ? New year getting closer . Only a few months to go . I should make my own food timetables . And my diet mission . diet mission ? sounds funny . sho funny ~ But.... Mm , I'm serious . I'm feeling like....I'm super stupid for being very very very veryyyyyyyy da fat and just loves to eat , eat , eat , eat , eat and Semangat tk kuat . Funny . Sometimes...I feel like wanna die . I wanna kill myself . But....I love  my mom , dad , my nigga , Him and those my swagger friends . Truth , I'm afraid of die . Oh someone please be my coach . Teach me how to diet , and get a new lyfe...I mean A healthy lifestyle . Oh mai God , I'm so serious right now . How I wish I can wear skinny jeans , Anything clothes, etc . Hm If kurus senang je nak keluar . t-shirt tk pn top yang simple but nice and Skinny jeans or legging , and flat shoes . How I wish I can wear just like that . hm How I wish...'How I wish' and I'm dreamin'......my house changed become a la la land and fairy tales world . OH EFFF ! common , do some efforts Izzati . You can't be like dis , lepak rumah makan makan makan......You should go out , somewhere and do some exercises . Bila nak kurus If macam ni je ? Pleaseeee , Naik form 3 kurus lah k . And fat , I'm seriously wanna make you get out of my body . me want to change my life . TRUTHLY , WANNA SEE ME TRULY HAPPY ? SOMETHING DAT GONNA MAKE ME A HAPPY GARL ALIVE IS BEING SKINNY . Umm , I'm finished . K dah bai . x

How I make a better day :

1. Eat
2. Laugh
3. Smile
4. text with him
5. play games with my nigga
6. Help my mother cook for our breakfast , lunch and dinner
7. playing with Tom
8. Listen to good songs
9. Plan something
10. Dream about the biggest cotton on .
11. Eat and Eat .

Boredom Attaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack !

kahshahlshajlsjlajlslajl;saj;ds; Oh Hi , what-sssaaaaaaaap ? Are you happy ? Yes , because I ALREADY SHOT THAT FUCKIN MONKEY IN THE ANGRY BIRDS GAME. *Bang bang lol But yeah , seriously I'm truly happy . yeay ! :-) mehehe So.....Am I need to confess something ? I think yah . Sorry cause I'm no update , and last week I'm so soooooooo very the busy y'know . With le final exam , and le school thingy . And again, I'm sorry . Umm okay , what's the hotzzz stowie ? Me had no schooling cause me a gusta . Yo ssup ? hahahaha This week straight seminggu tak datang . My mom told me better me not come to school . And...my teacher say so :-D hehehe Okay , act me no story . But seriously I tell ya , I'm so fucking bored here . How can be like this lah . mm , I should plan something for tomorrow . Maybe a movie ? Paranormal activity 3 ? with who ? My angah ? Sureeee ! :-) But , let me ask him first . mehehe But i guess , wangsa walk mesti penuh . Can't be liddat :( hm siapa tak kenal wangsa walk lame sangat lah tu :p lol hahahaha I'd rather say I dont know where the Wangsa walk . hahahahaha Seriously . K lah , I should end here . Nak tolong emak masak :p Oh before i Forget ,for who those celebrate Deepavali , especially to my tuition's teacher and his wife...Happy Deepavali to you n your family and Um, Hope enjoy on your feast day ! :-)  Love me , x 

Truth #1

6 things that you miss .

1. Him .
2. Friends , and the swag things we always do in school .
3. Eat an ice cream .
4. Starbucks .
5. Tutti Frutti .
6. Peanut + butter waffles .

1. I love you - To a guy named Ahmad Faiz I do, I love you about 10 times more than you think .

2. I'm sorry - To my family and friends, the ones I keep hurting continuously. I keep doing things you tell me not to. I say things that are wrong behind your backs. I embarrass all of you in the worst way any human could. And to that, I truly am sorry.

Hi Faiz <3 :-)

I'm so Happyyyyyyyyyy ! I can't believe it's already 1 year 4 months we've been together :-) I always love you and I know you're the right person . Um , I remember the first day I met you . And It wasn't love at the first sight but when I got to know you, I fell in love with you ! Cause you're too cute to be own :3 hehe Truly , I don't know what will happen to me If you weren't be there when the time I need someone to talk , to confess everything . I'm nothing without you . And seriously I don't need Superman , Spiderman , Batman , Hulk , Ben 10 , Forth arms or Muscleman because I already have my Ahmad Faiz -man...Yeay ! :-D mehehe And I'm so proud because I have a boy like you , Faiz :-)  Mm , Please oh pleaseeeeee stay with me cause you're the reason why I'm still smiling , laughing and strong . Baby , Nobody can love you like I do. I probably love you about 10 times more than you think . No matter what happen , I'm always love you n never let you go . Happy 1 year 4 months together my boy ! :-) I hope our relationship happily ever after till the end <3 :-)  I love you , Ahmad Faiz x


Me singing , and it's truly my voice nig . Hope enjoy ! x

Syafiqah tuduh Fat and then gaduh...

Syaf & Fat : khskakskakdkhaldj;ah;awkalnlanlsajwja;

Qilah : *trying to stop them . 

Me  : *suddenly with spontaneous. Nak roti ? :-) 

And the garls laughed so hard . Ha ha ha I think it's not funny . No comment . kbai .

Hi Thursday. And maybe today is my last begins . Ohh Izzati wake up . k stop . Ohh so today such a great day lah jugak . Not enough , but i feel so . k k k k k , maths dah habis ! :-D hikhikhik feeling so fly like a G6 . Ohhh ~ Wait , I still remember cikgu Nooro's face . She seems so happy sebab dah habis ajar kitrang maths kan . finally ~ hahahaha And me too , I'm happy ! Yeay ~ hihihi And last tadi , cikgu macam cakap something . And something tu make me proud of her , and rasa amat gembira . time tu je eh ~ hahaha And time PJ belajar maths dengan qilah kejap And then naik kelas and terus mengelabah , and panas gila ok . Oh i forgot to tell you guys that I'm study with no fan . Think it's nice ? I think so :-) Awwwh , semua dah macam ayam ayam yang sedang kene panggang ok ~ f4k . But , I wont forget bout this moment guys . I wont . I swear . Because I learn something . And it is , Patience . Okay , harini borak borak dengan cikgu Bm , macam kenalan lama pulak :p hahahaha Tukar beg dengan qilah and nak gambar beg dia ke ? ha ha ? hahahaha Okayy.....Everybody thinks that I'm Qilah . And that's moment make qilah and me laughed . Cuma cara jalan je yang boleh beza , bak kata najwa :p hahahaha Since i pakai je beg qilah , semua ingat nak ajak I balik sebab ingat I aqilah :-B mehehehe that's funny ~ And ohhhhh...Paling swag gila bila berdiri atas pentas and act like prefect , baca ikrar semua kan ~ hahahaha Qilah , kenapa dengan kita time tu ? Pelik , tapi puas lah jugak kan dapat gelak and forget all of my sadness for awhile . Thanks qil , fifi , fara , and others too :-') Ohh , you still can make me laugh even I'm in hard situation . And you guys didn't know what is something that make me easily touched right ? It's okay guys , I'm okay . Ok , I think I should end here . And If I'm free I will update my post but maybe tonight is my last day update this blog . I should away for my final exam .  well , It's just only 5 days before the exam . And strunggle habis lah ni :p hahaha Memang kene strunggle sebab dalam otak tak tahu lah ade ape . degil gila nk ingat and hafal semua . haih . Ok forget it . Oh wish me luck for the exam guys . And Thanks ! :-) Okay , nanight !  love , me xx

Maybe , It's over .

Hi . Okay , here is my random post . Again . I'm bored , and feels like I'm all alone . No I mean , I dont know why I'm easy to hate and being sad . and It's all of sudden . Hey , you dont know what I mean to . what I feel to . And no one can cheers me up when I'm sad . No one can by my side when I'm sad . Seriously , No joke . I'm happy when I see you're just too take care of your buddy . Ohh How lucky that girl to have a bestfriends like you :-') You're so kind , so lovely , so nice and I swear you're the bestest friends that she ever had . Sooner..., I'll loosing you . and maybe tomorrow . Yes , I'm changed . And I'm changed because of somethin that happened to me . Believe it or not , one day I'll be crazy . No joke . How stupid I am for wasting my life ignoring you , my best bestfriend . But friends , I feel you already have someone that can replace me . Sorry If I'm being so f*ckin emotional here . typing this fuckin emotional post while crying...and I dont know why . Our moment , the way you always treat me as your sister . Oh I know I'm so spoiled . A spoiled girl ever that always needs you , and always act like a little girl sometimes . A few days ago , I feel that I'm not with you . It's just my body . I feel we're far away . Day to day , slowly...you disappeared from my life . And one day , maybe you'll lose forever . I will loosing you . And i feel so . just let me go , and bear all the pain by myself . I know I have a family . But nobody knows , what's the meaning of 'family' towards me . Nobody knows the real of my sad story . Nobody ask me why . Why I'm being so weird . Nobody take care of me anymore . NOBODY.  Everyday , I hope i can fix all of this . I'm scared to confess this infront of you . I know you're too busy . And I'm always keep it and act like there's nothing that I should tell you . Well , I think silent is better than confess everything . Look , I'm pretend I'm happy . You dont know what I feel right ? Yesterday , today and my feelings was remarkable . ME SAD . You still dont know why right ? Dont know the reason why I'm sad . And everynight I'm sleep with broken hearted . How disappointed when I realized you didn't wait , and see me even I'm near you . You dont know about it right ? Because there's no time between me and you . I hope there's someone that can explain , tell you what I feel and what happened to me . Ohh It's hard . hard to me to find a friends like you . And I bet you wont feel what I feel so . mm I know I'm not good enough . Reti update dekat post je kan ? And sorry yah my friends . sorry for what I've done . For cant understands you in no matter what situation it is . Yah...Understands you just like your friends understands you . For being a freakin awesome friends , and sorry for everything . For burden you im my family problem , and my silly life . Sorry If I'm harsh or make you feel sad . I didn't mean it all . I'm just in sad mood that cant control myself...my feelings, my words . I hope you understand what I mean . For awhile , I hope you wont talk to me . Please . 

trying to hide all of my sadness here .

Hi . feeling like want to update my blog . Cause I feel I have to . And i want to . I want to confess that...right nowww... I'm so frustated and feel like everything destroyed . My heart destroyed for something that I shouldn't put all my hope on it . Really . Ohhh what a girl lah me . I feel so freakin disappointed . Kill that fuckin player is the best answer . The best ever . Ohh bang ! bang ! you die ~ k I'm done killed that fuckin heartless . kbai . I'm annoyed . Ohh I wish I can kill you sucka . Really wish to . You're just like others sweet talker , and l4rf being so fuckin damn asshole . wishing you read this. Hey fuckin stupid cow , This is for you . I swear . And remember this , I won't let you live with peaceful . No joke . You haa fuckin babi , I swear there's no word 'happy' in dictionary of your life . Kthanksbye .


Ok , I'm not in the mood right now . Really . Ahhh okay okay , trying to cheers myself with the moments at the school . Loadiiiinnnnngggg...... Hey pipal , why so fuckin' cool ? Laughed so much , making too much humor thingy , being rempit 4 lyf3 for a minutes , being spontaneous . And I heart you too much lah pipal who's already made me happy yesterday , today . Thank you guys , love you ! <3 :-)  Ummm..How happy I am when I heard someone's in relation and Feel sorry for who's can't last long . Need more understanding , and maybe there's someone that better than him/her right ? No worry , Dont cry :-') hihi Ok....suddenly teringat bout my tuition friends . She's already in relation with her man for 2 weeks . Ohh , I'm glade to hear it :-') I dont care somehow your man , or how both of you handle your relation . Appreciate him , take a good care of your relation with him ok ? :-) biasalah , nnti kalau ambil phone kau tak sanggup an ? Balik rumah jalan kaki , so hati hati phone tuuuu ~ Nanti kene curi susah nak text pulak kan ~ :p hahahahaha tak habis habis kene perli . 


Umm yesterday ? Everything's went freakin da kewl ! :-D boleh tak setiap hari sampai habis sekolah nak macam semalam je ? boleh lah  boleh laaaah ~ hahahaha After recess , Form 2 pergi dewan and ingat kan kene ceramah tau . sekali...... Main game ! Ohhhh can't believe it you know . seriously . Ohh I'm so thankful ok :-') sangat ~ hahahaha Okay , there're so many kuih in form 2 . hahahaha Kuih keria , karipap , bahulu , lapis ,bakar , pau , cekodok and my group.....Donut ! :D how cuteeeee . mehehe Seriously time dpt nama kuih semua , stock stock tak tahan gelak an ? :p hahahaha Ok , that's funny act . Ya funny . the first game , cekodok's team yang menang . Ohhhh congrats guys ! ;-) And I pn ade tau tau tau , menang game ke dua ! :D Team perempuan paling kuat ni ~ konon... hahaha Semangat demam tau , still jerit untuk my team . Bgun pagi td , memang suara pn ade tak ade . malang lah Syafiqah call aku pagi pagi tu sebab nak tanye pemadam dia :p hahahaha so sape hilang barang , tanye lah  . sure ade ~ hahahaha okay lah guys , I think I should end here . I wanna dream about my iphone 4 . hahahaha I wanna spend my time with my the lovely ones , and wanna sleep . My bed missed my alwedi :3 hehehe btw My man getting healthy ! :D yeaaay ~ For god sake , Me missed your voice ni . cepat sihat , nnti otp i cakap banyak banyak sebab windu sangat ! :-( K Night girlfie boyfrie ! x

Haluuuuu abewibadi ! :-) I won't update along longgggg paragraph 4 tonight . feel so tired and I've to finish my Seni . What I was thinking ? Lazy and sleep . My bed already call me :-( Ohhh...Am I doing something strange ? I think so . Being veri da rajin update my blog . So surprise me , Really . Tak apa lah , memang demam pn skrang . So mental tk okay :p hahaha Okay , suddenly I'm having my flu and feeling like throat pain . Woaah , all of a sudden . Mm , faktor faktor untuk tidak pergi Sekolah ! YEAY ~  :-D hahahaha Alaaa , me miss everiwan :-( and I wanna go to school . I'm serious . No joke . Mm serious . But how about my baby paiz ? uuuuuuuuwh , take care your cef , mish chu :* atototo....hahaha I yang nak jaga dia , I pn sekali ikut demam ~ Jodoh , sedondon ~ hahahahaha Ohhh what's fuckin wrong with me ? Of I feel distrubed here . hate this flu . Can stop alwedi . Chillll... listening to Jessie J - Who you are . It's not okay to be okayyyyyyy ~ It's not okay because tomolo is monday . Hi sekolah , dak dak sekolah semua . Back to school everyoneeeee ~ Your books missed you :-) Feeling liddis hkahkshkahshka  -_-  Oh suddenly I miss Johnny English more then Mr.Bean . haha English , bila nak dating ? :3 *wink wink . Habis lah , boyfriend aku baca ni...Merajuk sebulan . habis lah habis ~ hahaha Oh okay , I think I should end here . I feel sleepy but I should finish my Seni . Me forced to . K tata titi tutu , Night world ! x

Hello , saya Ijjati yang ada gigi besi and bila saya senyum skunk ni mesti rasa macam nak mati sebab gigi saya macam kene kejutan elektrik dan kene gergaji . tu je lah yang saya nak cakap , sebab sakit sangat lah . saya jadi terlalu menyampah + semakin marah dengan gigi saya yang kiri ke belakang dan yang kanan ke depan :-( Soooo ugly . very the ugly . Nak makan pn tak ade selera tau . Esok serious kurus :p hahahaha hope so . lulz But serious tau ni , gigi tak cantik dah . sebab kan kan , tak straight lagi n sakit . sakit sakit sakit ! ye , sakit . Chill , nak kurus kan ? so diam buat macam cool and peace out ~ hahaha 

Ok , Act today is my bad day . why ? Pergi appointments lambat sampai kene tunggu lama , semua macam tepung yang bersepah . lulz And merepek je aku ni buat benda yang tk sepatutnya aku tanggung . Kan kene marah dengan ayah sendiri . Lepas tu ungkit sana sini , and nice huh dad ? Ingat tak dengar ke dalam bilik tu sambil meraung nangis semua ? hahahaha Hate that part . But I kinda love love love the moment when I called my boyfriend and I tell him everything while crying and seriously I'm like a baby . So much . Macam kesah sangat kan cause I'm his baby kuat kentut v^.^v . Upps tite memang cam tu dengan boypren tite , dia pn tak marah . How lucky I am agaaaaaainnnnn.... ! hahaha If I repeat/ say that words 'How lucky I am' for million times pn tak akan sama banyak macam Apa yang ku rasakan ini . Ohhhhhh ~ hahaha Kejap eh . nak serious . For God sake , I'm happy because I have a best boyfriend ever that's always prove his love for me , rather do everything for me , act like a baby sometimes...and It's cute ! :3 And willing to make the decision to spend more and mooreeee time with me than his friends :-') hihi 

Oh hi Again . My name is English . I'm cute like Mr bean . peace ! hehehe Today went out with.....Officially with Amelia . Ohhh , she's so damn pretty . I like her style . so bad . Since primary pn , memang cantik tu cantik jugak an ~ hahahaha Act me and Aqilah were decided to watch Johnny English Reborn . Then everything's jadi kucar and the kacir , At last keluar dua orang mcm couple dengan Amy . But Me still got the fun ! :-D Amy bought 2 'cikai phone' in one day . One day tau . hahaha And what about me ? Iphone 4 , White je lah aku tanya . Tak apa , otw nak turun . Someday Iphone 4 , white will be mine . I swear :-B hahaha How about Johnny English Reborn ? I tell ya , It's fuckin awesome . Everyone can't stop laughing with Mr. Bean's humor , and I bet everyone in the cinema mesti Have fun gila . Gila gila ! hahahaha and then keluar dari cinema semua stock stock serbu toilet ~ haha I masuk je toilet and 'terjoget joget kejap an' , Bak kata Era ~ hahahahaha  I think , Only g4rls will know what I mean right ? :p hahaha K lah people , I feel sleepy + having my toothache . And I wanna spend my time with my sweetie yang kena chicken pox tu ♡  :* mihihi ciao ! x

Disappointed .

Hi . this is my random post . I'm just tired of everything . I'm tired of my dad's doing and all my dad's say . I hate it kskakshkal so freakin bad . I'm tired of eat . I'm tired of my fuckin hair . I'm tired of my fat . Ohhh why lah you can't just get out of my body . Sucks ! I'm tired of being ugly . You dnt know how much it's fuckin hurts me for being called Ugly/fat etc.  I'm tired with the feeling 'hurt' . Hurt with my ugly teeth . Depan ke balakang , depan belakang . kertard . sakit nak mati ! Ah I'm tired of being disappointed and frustated . And kinda weird when I dnt want to talk to anybody . I dnt to smile and I dnt want to fake being fake happy . And at the same time , you dont know exactly what's wrong either . I'm tired of being sad and suddenly realize how lonely I am . And suddenly feel like so regret with all my wrong-doings/mistakes/ with what I've done , bought and else . Sometimes the though of afraid just make me scared of everything . and thinking all of my sins against Allah . being a wild teenage sometimeees....being so harsh with my lovely family , lovely boyfriend , lovely bestfriends/friends , and everybody around me . I'm tired of it all , really . There're times when I'm doing something will happen and change my mood . It's like misery always finds me .  Even I try to forget and let it out , It still hurts . Well , pains never really goes away . You just get alevated and get used to it by growing stronger . That's it . And yah people , I'm a human that believe in karma . 


Year to year, I'm changed . And yah things changed you cant keep that . People come and go . these days , people l4rf being fake . Yes , I'm not perfect . But I'm better than when you're sayin 'I'm not perfect....Human will never run away from their mistakes , I'm only a human lah so wtv and etc' . You're such a bitch that tryin to cover all of your mistakes . And people these days always do it . I bet you . Love ? Fall in love and fall out love . It's apart of lyf3 . Forever alone pn apart of life jugak ? masa kini . maybe . hahaha Waitttt.... I wanna tell ya that I love my love life . How wonderful I've been Faiz's . I love you , baby :* hihi And sometimes it will hurts you and other times it will make you laugh . But It's how you learn those changes that make you who you are :-')